I loved him.
I guess he loved me too,
Not coz I knew it for sure,
But coz I chose to believe it
He wasn't like the usual bf
He didn't like get me gifts, threw random sweet msgs or surprises
Didn't even pick up on status updates
But, he sure tried on some stuff
So I guess I can say he didn't do so bad.
But sometimes I just wanted him to be like the rest of them
Surprise me even
But he never did,
He was just the usual,
Other days he made me love him less
I even got tempted to date other guys
Break up with him even.
But I couldn't, he was different, good different
He made me happy, laugh, smile and he sorta knew me
In a way that other guys I dated in the past never did
Wasn't easily angered
Acknowledged his mistakes, respected me
And always wanted to make me happy
Who couldn't fall in love with that??!!!
Yes sometimes I felt he never made time for me
Or I wasn't even someone he valued,
But he wasn't perfect..... No one is actually
I just had to love him anyway
After all love is all about giving yourself to someone else
Regardless of whether that love will be returned or not
In short, taking a risk.
So I loved him not for the person he couldn't be
But for what he was and most importantly,
What he meant to me.
Way until he woke up one day
And decided he wasn't good enough for me
In a way that most people hated being left....especially me
"In a text"....all of a sudden I meant nothing to him
All the while being played for a fool I didn't think I was
Empty words and promises was all I could remember him whispering to me
While the sweet memories we shared kept playing in my head like a broken record
And the hurt I felt not only consumed me, it was me
He forgot about all my love,how I would never give up on us,
He was enough for me,
That's why I gave my all
After all he wasn't just my lover,
He was also my best friend.
But that's life,
We embrace the times while they last
And move on because we have to
So...No I won't be bitter or hate him or throw awful words at him
Instead I will be thankful he was in my life for the time he was
And ultimately find a way to remember him without hurting myself
Quoted from: LIFE HAPPENS: THE B.S AND SCIENCE BEHIND OUR ALMOST LOVE STORY ( AddieBoettcher).
