My birthday.... Turning 19, I remember it like it happened yesterday..He stayed up all night helping me countdown till twelve as a personal tradition I had started and became the first person to wish me a Happy Birthday. He made my day and most importantly...he was there for me making sure I was having the time of my life...I was happy not only for that day but for the other days that I was happy being with him. And when he said later that day the three most powerful words, "I love You", I never said "I love you" back at him not coz I don't love him but because it's scary saying those words because that's when hurt starts. But on the other hand my past relationship made it hard for me to say the words..So I sat down later that day with my pen and pencil and expressed what I felt..I started.....
If I could say words from my heart I could say baby I love u and more than anything baby I need u and if it was possible I would tell u to never leave my side....
But when I look at you I think that am not worthy of your love....u tell me u love me but all I hear is u will hurt me and I don't wanna be vulnerable and say I love you too and hurt all over again...
Because love made me weak and made me strong... Helped me to love and be loved...gave me happiness and sorrow...but love made me hateful and hurt so I won't say I blame love but I blame me for not being truthful to you.
Don't walk away, just give me time I will make this right... I don't know if I believe in you but I believe in taking chances...so Lemmie get my words right and approach you and instead of saying I love you in silence.... I will say I love you too in words
The curious ones will want to know what happened later...So I gave him the notebook to read and he totally got it and he said he is ready to wait till am able to say, "I love you" in words..
So whenever you feel you can't express your emotions or feelings, write them out!!!! It surely helps.
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